as i was about to step in my hse after work today,i heard my mum's voice shouting at insya.suddenly i dun feel like i wanna go home....ntah eh...i juz dun know how to explain it...but forget it...niwae dat feeling terubat jgak bila finally mum cook smthing diff....sotong itam...hehehe....at least i m having diff meal today.
i m juz in a daze now...after d discovery,i m juz feeling afraid wat daily surprise i or shall i say us will be getting...i hated it all...can we juz our peace....?we dun disturb anyone n i wud like it if anyone wont disturb us...i love her her n i m not letting go...pls...pls....i m still holding on or in fact,i m gripping her hard....true i m being laid back too much now.true i dun bother much of her feelings now...but actuali i do...cuma i dunno y i m feeling like in a dream je nowadays....even d uncle kat work tanyer if i m still sick.cos i always seem like wanna sleep or too quiet even during lunch...hahaha...mayb i m tired after all....
i wanna let go more of my feeling but i dunno wat to say...hee...
still angry wif trofast cos my pay is nt out yet.fri i'm getting keppel's pay.keppel's pay keep on coming n coming but trofast's pay is still not even smell at my account...damn dem!smoga btul2 1 fine day someone charge them for dis....report to MOM...baru padan muka diorg...


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sebelum tarian tinta menarikan ungkapan kata dari lubuk hati ini,dengan ketulusan hati ku pohon keampunan dari mu kekasih...
dengan tarian tinta semakin rancak menari,dgn gemalai ku persembahkan luahan naluri.
andai cerita cinta kita yg lahirnya tanpa disedari,andai cinta itu pergi,jgn lah ada yg kesali.kerana cinta ini padat dari lubuk hati,tanpa ada segaris cela yg menggaris perasaan ini.andai masa yg berlalu pergi hanya sepusingan saja lagi,memori bersama kan ku bawa hingga mati....
tiada kata dpt ku gambarkan cinta kita,tiada bahasa seindah ungkapan cinta kita dan tiada gambaran yg dpt mewarnakan cinta kita berdua.hanya kau dan aku yg mengerti.namun takdir yg tertulis diazali,bkn ditgn kita utk memungkiri.halangan dan dugaan yg kita ranjau bersama,onak dan duri yg merobek luka kulit kita,sanggup ku tempuhi selamanya.sanggup ku terjang badai melanda...kuharap,kau begitu jua....

ceh ceh ceh...kan dh berfalsampah n madah berhelah....k
baby,dun b sad2...love u veri strong.....n i m recovering well frm my fever....thank god!k dats all...bubye........

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feeling very cold n bodyache yest at work..tink nothing of it at first.but as noon came,d feeling got worse....i m having fever!!!!dat is yest.bfore ha came n soaked me wif ice water which makes me almost wanna cry...its painful...d moment d cloth touch my body,i feel like i was stung by a bee....today i m on mc...actuali d fevewr have went down...but i still have body ache..unlike yest i was shivering n even i can c haze when der is none...i m feeling better today n tks to d nurse....d best gal i ever had...who reali heal my sickness...all......
love u alot baby....cant imagine life w/out u....


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a gentle reminder to my baby....
u expect me to update my blogs,u will update urs too k...i got not dat much time on earth to update blogs...i got no lappy like u do...aniwae its crashed...hee.....
well today is 28....last day updated was like 22...so its onli 6 days....
n today is juz a plain unlucky day for me too....maybe bcos of d monday blues,lady luck also got blues to shine on me...my petlup is sick to d extend she wont start...battery i guess....i took a cab home.drenched!bcos today is juz like in a movie....d moment i was trying to push my bike to make her start as usual,rain start pouring....on d bright side,rezeki tu....i m sori to shout at u like dat juz now...i m juz pissed off...sori baby...its raining n u called juz to ask wat time i m leaving.wif my bike not moving n getting wet n difficult to cover d phone frm d rain...niwae...love u....
k dats all for today...

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few weeks back,i witnessed d fateful accident....a motorist being knocked by dunno which gigantic vehicle till his head is out of shape.n i can c his in head thru his broken helmet...God forgive me!den another accident at bukit batok road towards j.east.which involved 2 of my baby's frens.dey too passed away...den i read at teban gdn road towards j.east,another fatal accident...at keppel,last week alone,two ppl died.fall frm height.1 more indian man is now fighting for his life after he had a fall and a big plate fall on his leg.nxt mth he is getting married.back in india,his family is preparing for his big day.still not aware of his condition now...oh n i forget to add,d guy whose head is smashed,he juz have a baby frm his 1 yr old married.his baby is onli 7 days old...every day....each day....i m afraid.afraid to hear any more sad news or tragic ends dat have to mit us...be it connected or not...d pinch is still felt...wat if it happens to any of us...subhanallah....
cherish d one dat u love...cherished d moments of happiness n being by each others' side each time u met...cos tomorrow,u nvr know what may happen...
baby....love u....

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is it true happiness dun last?even if it doesnt last,we can prolong it rite?
baby,is it seriously my fault for always putting work n other stuffs ahead of u...?is dat wat u feel?i kind of miss our outings n activities...i do miss soccer at times.i do miss silat alot oleadi n i miss hanging out wif my frens.but now i m enjoying work too....i know we r taking things slow but i hope dat doesnt make ur feeling fade away...n i m picking up d pieces dat i'v broken....picking up my momentum of finance n sleep management n family....well i hope we can reali worked smthing out...i hope cny we can reali spend time together n sit n plan wat we wanna do n make use of our busy timing as a positive preparation for our future....
well i miss alot of things n especially alot when we r duing things together.....


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i'v been quiet for smtime now...well nothing to update cos der's no issue at d moment.work is great,my life is great n of cos my partner n i is also juz as great.so far so gud n der's nothing to talk bout.except for d accident dat i saw.wow!dat reali shakes me.d squashed head of d rider...d blood...errr.....so scary...
k lah...dats all folks...

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thank god i make thru...passed my skill evaluation test.6 more mths bfore set 2.few more weeks need to practise on my welding skills.on 5th dec i m having my rigging n signalling test.wif abg rahim....yeay...a trainer yg full of experience...n a nice chap too....n den dunno when will be my smaw 3g test.but we'll start trng dis sat.dat is tomolow.but alhamdulilah gak.smaw is smthing we'v been duing even for d set 1 test.set 1 test consist of 1g,2g,3g,3f,gouging n cutting.oh n drawing.all dat within 6hrs....n alhamdulilah we pull thru...after 3g smaw,we'r gonna take 3g fcaw.den we might proceed to 6g....
smaw = shielded mask arc welding.using electrode.
fcaw = flux core arc welding.using oxygen.
smaw can make me sweat like running 10k.but fcaw can burn my skin even it doesnt make me sweat dat much.but i juz love welding...nice skill to learn.erm........i mean hot skill to learn.hahahaha....
i dun expect to pass as we onli learn dis less den 2 mths.compare to d banglas yg amik dgn kitorg yg dah keje 5 to 6 yrs...n dey can proudly say how nice n fast dey weld...puit!if diorg given same timing as us,baru diorg tau langit tu tinggi ke rendah!boastful ppls...i dun like dem....but some of them is nice.but d nice ones r rare.rare species in their puak...
so i will still b in trng ctr...i'd rather b here forever den go back to piping n mit d banglas der...most of dem r juz boastful n kind of stupid....but if i go piping,i can b wif my pinoy frens...hee...dos 5 pinoys dah jadi mcm close fren plak...mkn time all sit together n mamam...den joke around...nnti aku blajar ckp filipin.diorg ketawakan aku...step diorg nyer melayu bagus je...padahal sama...

k enuf bout work...mitting my sweet lovely lady gal soon...wah now she's working at starbucks...nice job n good skul.n getting good results...how lucky m i....having her in a package....k lah....gg off.....


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dis morning i start wif a big smile on my face.i woke up at surprisingly 515am.i mandi n pack my stuffs.as today is monday,i look for my socks,uniform,workpass n etc..after dah pakai n packed everything,i m sort of masih ngantuk...den i teringat nk bwk baju extra.tkkan nk alik pakai baju work kan...den i bukak robok baju to take baju.den i found dis note written by her.i dunno when she paste it.but dat note reali makes me smile.i reached work at 645.hahahaha...even bfore my frens' transport arrived.den i went to locker n singing songs..
thanks baby....love u..mahal kita,pangako sayo....
well work is duing great.my test wud be on d 26th nov.gud luck for me....


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'kaki megorak langkah
tanpa tongkat petunjuk arah
kemana hendak melangkah
kemana entah kemana
bertapak-tapak langkahnya
setapak pelbagai makna
tersusun persoalannya
gerak geri yg bermula
apakah nanti penghujungnya......'

dunno wat to do update.cuma now i know dat i m tired....i sleep too long n now i m having headache n bodyache.but d rest of d day i feel like i m not having enuf rest bcos i nid to wake up early....hee....
but wat i know is dat i m happy wif my new job n i m leading a happy r'ship....n my life is simpler now....work,her n home....not dat i chuck frens aside...i m juz plain tired to go out after a hectic day at work...playing wif fire n gases every day....my body nid to sleep....
k lah...gg to bed....monday blues for tomolow.........

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